This is My Psychosis
I have to learn how to say “NO”… Unfortunately, achieving it is the only thing that I can seem to say “NO” to almost instantly!
I’m trying to keep positive; to be the epitome of the leader that I was supposedly “groomed” for or whatever. It just gets so tiring to juggle everything and everyone’s emotions and different level of hyper-sensitivity. I have to adjust to this and that and so much more. I don’t want to complain and I certainly do not want to disappoint people or hurt them -to the extent that I put everything about them, first before anything else.
I don’t know. I’m stressed. Tired. Hurt. Frustrated. Confused.
I’m really trying my best not break down and I’m being steadfast with my faith… it’s just so .. I don’t know. I said I will not cry or anything but I end up crying every night … I don’t know if it’s because I’m just tired or if it’s an accumulation of hurt inside…I don’t know…
Lord, I’m not really complaining and I know that you’re giving me all these because you know I can take it and I can do it. I just pray for more strength, patience and wisdom so that I can do all these without steering from You. Thank You! ❤